I've decided that, for me, the most difficult part of pregnancy is the mental endurance it requires from me. The last two weeks are always so mentally and emotionally exhausting! Pregnancy is definitely a mental marathon. I have always (from pregnancy #2 and on) experienced Braxton Hicks contractions from mid-pregnancy on, which only intensify in strength and become more frequent (and in hours-long runs) as my pregnancy continues. I went into labor naturally with Aurelle, Jovi and Waits, leading one to think that I would easily recognize real contractions from the "practice" ones.
Well, one would be wrong in this instance. :)
I have spent the entire last two weeks of every pregnancy absolutely convinced that I am going into labor just about every hour or so. Every contraction feels so intense, that every time one comes, I swear that THIS. this has got to be the real thing.
...Just to be disappointed. Every. single. time.
And then I will start having regular and intense contractions every 5 minutes- which will last for hours, only for them to finally drop off completely at 2 in the morning, leaving me with a few hours of sleep before my kids wake up and I am exhausted and STILL pregnant for another day.
I found myself, even with my 5th pregnancy, having to remind myself that this will actually end... you know... eventually. Somehow your body has the ability to trick you into thinking that your current pregnancy will actually last forever, and you will be pregnant for ALWAYS. Which is, of course, completely ridiculous. But ah, such is life to the mind of a feeling-overdue pregnant woman!
(I don't mean to sound negative, here. I love pregnancy. I really, really do, as crazy as it sounds, and I am grateful for each and every day I get to grow and nourish my precious little babies inside of me, especially when it means that they can grow and develop as they should, and come into this world as healthy as possible. I'm just trying to keep things real here! It can sure seem hard while you are minute-to-minute anxiously anticipating finally holding your little one in your arms, while also existing and functioning on so little sleep! ;) )
All of my previous pregnancies have come to an end between 9 and 17 days early (17, 9, 12 and 10 days early- in order of pregnancy). Women follow patterns, my doctor said. I'll be at least 9 days early, my mind translated, of course. Well, 17... 12... 10... and 9 "days early" came and went. Eight "days early" I was at church when I had previously told everyone there was absolutely no possible way that I would be there, and everyone asks "How are you still here?" (Words to never speak to a pregnant woman over 37 weeks)
The day I hit 39 weeks, I had an appointment scheduled with my midwives where they promised me that they would help move things along with a sweep of my membranes (sounds better than "stripping membranes" to me) if I wanted. (Yes, please!) After finding out that I was already dilated to 5 cm, my midwife informed me that in her patient history, women who were somewhat progressed in early labor would have a baby within 24 hours of a membrane sweep. I left the office cramping mildly, and was in active labor within an hour and a half.
Not knowing how long it would take for full labor to kick in, I had the wonderful idea to go home and pick up my family and my mom who was staying with us, and go and run some errands to help keep my mind off of the crazy pregnant woman impatience I knew I would experience otherwise. While walking around (translate: chasing my kids around the toy aisles of) Ross, I was using my contraction timer app, and was logging pretty uncomfortable contractions that were 2-3 minutes apart.
After about half an hour I was beyond regretting my idea to run errands, and informed everyone that had accompanied me that I wanted to go home, and that pregnant ladies in almost-labor always win. So we headed home, stopped by In-n-Out on the way to grab lunch for the kiddos (and me! since they never let you eat at the hospital... a policy I strongly dislike and disagree with!), and my mom announces to the cashier that "you better hurry, because we have a woman in labor waiting in the car!", and the cashier looked at her like, "uuuhhhh... then why are you in here ordering burgers?" Or so Kyle says, haha.
It was while this woman-in-labor was waiting in the car for lunch that the real contractions began. They slowed down in pace, but picked up in intensity. I knew, without a shadow of a doubt, that this was the real deal. But as they had slowed down to 5 minutes apart, and all we needed to was drop my mom and the kids off a home and pick up the hospital bag, we were in no real hurry. Besides, I really wanted to eat my burger and shake. :)
I lasted about 5 minutes and half of a burger at home before I was ready to head to the hospital. I have experienced going into labor at home four times now (and made it to 9 cm dilated with Aurelle before getting an epidural), and I can tell you that not all labors are created equal! Labor with Aurelle and Jovi was very, very manageable. I never experienced any pain, only extreme discomfort. Labor with Waits was different. Every single contraction, even in very early labor, was extremely painful. Going into labor with Locklan was the same way. These contractions were intensely uncomfortable, with a nice sharp stabbing pain in my lower abdomen and cervical area. I had such hopes (now looking back, I think of them more as "grand delusions") of delivering Locklan without any pain medication, but with the contractions I was experiencing this time around, I was so excited to get to the hospital, just so they could get me hooked up to an epidural ASAP!
As soon as we grabbed our bag, said goodbye to the kiddos and told them they would get to meet their new baby brother soon, we headed out to our car. Now as a little back story, about a year before, the ignition in our van locked up so that we could not turn the key to start it. It costs a little more than we usually have laying around to get it fixed, so we had the locksmith come out, un-jam it, and never went in to get it fixed. Over a year went by and we only experienced it getting stuck again one other time. And I bet you can guess where this back story is going... The day I am in labor, at the time we are heading to the hospital so I can give birth, when I was already dilated to 5 centimeters that morning, we get in the van, and... they key won't turn. YES. Of all the days and times, this is the day and time where we can't get our car to start!
To say we were frustrated would be true, but slightly on side of being an understatement.
Kyle decided to call his sister to come and pick us up and drop us off at the hospital. An idea I wasn't completely thrilled about. Which is a little silly, because, really... it doesn't matter how you get to the hospital, it is just kind of important that you get there, right? But all I could think in my cranky contracting state was how dumb that was to have to be dropped off at the hospital by my sister-in-law! Hah. We sat for about 10 minutes after Kyle called his sister, you know, just hanging out in a parking lot, sitting in a car that won't start (meaning: no air conditioning) in August- in labor, kind of waiting, kind of freaking out (and sweating), and not knowing at all what to do. We decided to say a prayer, Kyle pounded on the ignition a couple dozen times, and just like that, the ignition worked! I don't know if I have ever been so relieved at an answer to a prayer before! And we headed to the hospital...
As I have no pictures of being in labor, I'll give you a little teaser of part 2 of this labor story:
To be continued...